Monday, May 25, 2009

A Summary of Memorial Day Weekend

Wow, I was so busy this past weekend and got a lot done that I wanted to get done and that makes me real happy! My cousin and I took a drive to the park in the town over and took some pictures of the big pond they have. After we got back she ended up spending the night and was such a big help with the yard work. We have a gigantic front yard and the grass was in dire need of a trim! So she helped me cut the front left half, which between the two of us and 2 push mowers, it took about, 5 hours or so. I brought her home Sunday, then Sunday afternoon I finished the right half of the front yard which took all day! But it is finally done and looking gorgeous. It will look even better when I'm finished decorating it, and I can't wait to see how it all looks in the end!

Today I was so sore I didn't hardly get anything done, and there was so much I wanted to do seeing as today was the last nice day we'll have for the next two days. We got our new horse yesterday. Traded Surri, our "jolly giant" for him, and he is pretty much just as big! Beautiful horse too, hopefully after a little work he'll calm down seeing as he hasn't been ridden this spring yet (well, not counting today). It's been about a year since I've ridden, so I best start stretching now because it's going to be a rough ride (for me)! Ever since that damn riding accident my hip and pelvis hasn't been "just right," so hopefully my dad's friend won't take me on the crazy trails right away! Anyways, here's a picture of him. He's a 10 year old gelding, American Quarter Horse, Appaloosa cross, I think. His colors are very unique, which adds to his beauty!

Hard to believe this day flew by so fast, augh. The puppy must have gotten quite a bit of exercise this weekend, seeing as he let me sleep every night for the past two nights! He's zonked out on my bed right now, poor fellah. He's too cute when he's asleep! When he's awake though...look out, because he's full of piss-n-vinegar. (Yes mom, you may steal this picture if you would like :P) hehe. Tucker (the puppy) was such a big help when I was doing yard work. He left some tennis balls in the grass so I could run them over with the lawn mower and use them as projectiles at the house and vehicles! I must work on my aim, however...

Ok so here's a funny story...My cousin and I were cutting the grass, and we were over by the apple trees and heard this humming like the sound of high-voltage electricity...turns out it was a bunch of honey bees pollinating the apple blossoms! It was the strangest sound because the bees are kind of small that you really have to know what you're looking for to actually see them! It was kind of neat, but I'm glad we didn't piss them off and get stung! *phew*

That pretty much covers my Memorial Day weekend, which once again, I got a lot done and I'm very happy! It was one of the better weekend's I've had in a while. I've been so insanely active and busy this past WEEK that I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow and Wednesday while it pours and storms! Guess I'll have to finish the house work that I started on a few days ago and never got around to finishing, since it was so gorgeous outside!

Anywho, here are a couple other random pictures I took while outside yesterday. Enjoy!

Friday, May 22, 2009

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Sunday, May 17, 2009

Oh Sweet Relief, You Have Come At Last...

Well, I just have one final exam left...Developmental psychology, which is this Wednesday. I am so relieved that I passed Human Body in Health and Disease with an A, and I was the student in the class with the highest grade...WOW what an honor! And I passed General Anatomy and Physiology with a B, which was what I was aiming for. I'm still waiting on my Written Comm score but I'm almost 100% it is also an A, and psych I know I will get an A in. WOO HOO! I can't explain in words how nerve-wracking this past month has been, but now, knowing how well I did, it is such a relief, and I am very proud.
This week I tell seems like some supernatural force knows that I am just about to wrap up the semester, because all shit hits the fan! Just one example was the call I got Thursday morning from an old nurse friend I used to work with. She and her husband were in need of assistance seeing as the storm Wednesday night had knocked down their shed, so I graciously decided to go over there and help clean up the debris Thursday morning before class. There I am, tossing wood into the fire and about 3 feet away...her husband decides "hey, why bother going to the recycle center when I can just toss these glass bottles containing PAINT THINNER...into the fire?" Of course he's pretty old and senile, so he throws them a mere 3 feet away...with no clue, because he gave me no warning! The next thing I know I hear this big KABOOM and suddenly my head feels like it's been split by a cord of firewood...I open my eyes and had a fantastic view of the sky. Well of course I could only see out of one of my eyes after that little episode! So I knew at that moment it was going to be one hell of a day...then I was late for class, and I was half way there when I realized (due to the clusterfucked day I was having) that I had forgotten my papers that I had to hand in! So I turned around, got home, grabbed my paper, and hauled ass to school. But in the end, everything turned out alright! I did well on my final exams, did well in my classes, and since all that stress had dissipated, I was finally able to get a good night's sleep! Of course without the constant supply of adrenaline and cortisol coursing through my veins, I feel like I don't have the energy to do *ANYTHING* now!
The weather was pretty decent today, bit chilly and windy, but the sun was out and that's really the most important thing! I've been trying to organize the pictures and videos I've took over the years...but I gave up. It's pretty hopeless to go through 10,000 photos and 500 home movies. I think maybe I'll just dump them all into one folder on the computer and delete any duplicates then arrange by type...That seems like the easiest option! And it seems like the gelatinous sludge seeping out of my ears (the junk encased in my cranium I like to refer to as my neural network) seems to be once again solidifying. So for all of you who were concerned, fear not my young pathogens...I mean patawons, for my brain is re-entacting!
Wow the creativity is rolling off my tongue now...I seem to be making up new words, yay! But laughter is a good sign, it means I am returning to normal. Watch out world, here comes Heidi! Woo hoo, I just checked the forecast and it is looking really promising! YAY! Although it might not be as warm as one could hope for, the sun will be shining through and that always seems to give me such positivity.
Well, I'm off to bed to recover from one of the most stressful weeks I've ever had (one of the many, just to be clear).

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Almost There!

Another wet and cold day here in Wisconsin...seems like our weather is somewhat confused...this is supposed to be time for crazy weather and tornado's! Instead it is just cold and rainy-too predictable. Yuck, I want some sunshine. Today the weather is supposed to look more promising-plenty of sunshine and a high of 66, woa, not sure if I can handle THAT heat! I took my first final exam on Tuesday and I think it went pretty well...Almost certain I got at least a B, maybe an A! Woo Hoo. I take my last AnP lecture exam tomorrow, we have to go to the test center because we ran out of time during lecture last week. If our instructor didn't ramble on and on so long about useless shit and dull discussion there would have been more time. *rolls eyes* I did study some for it, but now I'm to the point where I really don't care (I do but I pretend not to) and pray to God I pass! Anyways, Friday I have the AnP final exam, which I'm scared to death about but there isn't much more I can do about it now except hope and pray. Hopefully after the semester ends I'll be able to get back some sort of a sleep pattern that involves more than 2-4 hours of sleep a night, which is probably why I feel like I've been slowly losing my mind over the last 17 weeks! Speaking of sleep, I think I aught to try that right about now because I'm typing with one eye open!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Looking Through Dirty Glass

I can't even begin to explain in words the chaos that has taken over my life...which I have spent so hard trying to tame the wild events that seemed to wrap me in a tight blanket, suffocating me. I don't know what's going on but I don't feel like I'm me lately. It's like I'm slipping into a dark void of misunderstanding and disorientation. It sort of feels like astral projection...where I'm watching myself from above, but also at the same time, looking through my eyes which seem to be distorted views of the world surpassing me at hyper-speed.

I have my first final exam today...and it's 12:28 AM. Luckily it's not like I have to get up early, seeing as my written communications instructor isn't having class until Thursday. And the only thing we're doing on Thursday is handing in our last papers. I'm not sure whether it is the extreme fatigue that is driving me closer to the edge of insanity, or whether it is an actual biological process innate in my genes that are finally being expressed. The Epigenetic Theory states that biology and the environment interact to create personality/behavior...I wonder if my traits are being pushed out, or maybe it's the stress and anxiety speaking! Well I'm tired, going to try that thing called sleep. I don't want to end up typing in my sleep and regretting what I typed!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Fighting Fatigue and Facing Finals

Well, I have final exams this coming week and the week after. YUCK! My brain is already fried from all the "useless"(mostly uninteresting) information packed into my roughly 5# gelatinous contents contained within the cranium; composed of a mixture of gray and white matter; fatigued by 18 weeks of hypnotic, monotonous lectures and the smell of Formaldehyde, whose molecules direct themselves into my nose and torture me with the constant scent of dead people. YUM! Nothing like having to sit through three hours of truly uninteresting lecture only to be overwhelmed by the lingering smell of death as the instructor continues another two hours lecturing in a lab setting with uncomfortable chairs and very big windows, so that the sun can shine in and bake the cadavers. I'm glad that class is only once a week because I could have swore I read an article from the CDC (who are *never* wrong...) about the effects of inhaling Formaldehyde. Anatomy and Physiology is such a difficult class...extremely detailed and very meticulous. I have a short attention span when it comes to just sitting there watching a teacher recite from a power point. It's like, "uh, hello dude...I can read the same power point you are reading from...why not just let us leave already, ffs!" But anyways, I decided to start sleeping with my text books under my hopes that osmosis will occur and my brain will absorb the information like a sponge. Well, I can hope, right?

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Nearing the End

Monday was a great day, so it is only logical that Tuesday sucked, right? Yes! What a screwy day it was/is. It is still Tuesday for another 11 minutes. Well, although it was a crappy day, some good did come out of it. I got the confirmation that I have been re-entered into the nursing program for the Fall semester, woo hoo! And also, I finished my psych life application paper, which is due Wednesday...tomorrow. There is just so much to do this week it's insane to try and keep everything straight. I'm still holding my grades strong, yay! Sometimes I wonder how I am able to even manage remembering where I'm going each morning, let alone maintaining straight A's and B's.

You know what I really hate...I hate when dreams feel so real. Nightmares actually. I *HATE* how real nightmares can feel sometimes, then you wake up and feel mortified for the rest of the day until the feeling passes. That's what started the morning for me today. And it's nearly midnight and once again here I am, wide awake typing an online journal that nobody reads. I don't even know why I keep a blog anyways. I keep a written journal as well. I write a lot. I just *HAVE* to write to stay sane. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't...but at least I can say I tried!

I talked to my friend Andrew today, it was so great hearing from him. He was recently deployed for his first tour of duty. To be honest, I didn't think I would miss him as much as I do. That reminds me of an article I read on today..."500,000 expected to flee before Pakistan offensive." "The government sent out an evacuation order ahead of an expected military offensive in the Taliban-dominated region." What happened to the element of surprise???? No wonder we've been in Iraq for SIX FUCKING YEARS!!!! Un-fricken-beleivable. The power of stupidity never ceases to amaze me...

It's been one of those days...